Right Time

I know now why God is so good..I realize a lot and think of this all over again and again..

As if God gaves me second chances..He is so good that he gave me a man of my dreams..He gave me a man who is impossible to love..to love me and I to love him..But it's happening now..despite the distances..Now that he is there in my life fulfilling my heart I really realize in joyous ways that God has forgiven me..That I have the right to love again..That I have the right to live in a colorful world..He gave my life meaningful again..He let me see how wonderful to be inlove again.

But it was sad that our love started so soon and distance is our enemy right after..

If only we started dating since highschool...
If only we see each other and talked a lot since we first met..
If only we are in the same school on college..
If only I was just in the same city within on our college years..
If only we see each other on and be close friends in our town..
If only I knew you have crush on me a long time a go..

and we could spend much time to be together,..

This night was really a teary and lonely night for me..I am longing for his presence or his messages. I am counting the days and months to see him again. It was about 1 month since we hardly not communicated unlike before and I notice everyday I get to miss him that much.

I was wondering how he is..what he is doing..there are lots of things rattling in my mind..but in the end I know we love each other and extremely devoted. I keep on remembering our promises..his promises to me whenever I feel or think something bad or someone had given feedbacks..

Watching the movie and I love you so was very touching..made think that those years that we are on our highschool and college was not the right time for us to be inlove with each other..Every relationship has the right time.

Way back

Way back time when he had been texting about how he felt..I didnt kow what to say or react but what I know is that there is no error..

He is single and I am too..He loves me and asking myself if I love him too?? I was afraid to love him back but I could say I like him and I am at ease or could I say there is really a connection between us..

I never doubt his feelings on me..I didn't know why but I believe in him right away..But reminiscing my past thats when I ask myself if he is saying the truth or am I receiving lies again? why does he loves me? There are so many questions in my mind but in my heart I am really willing to love him..I guess I was ready to commit again thats why I have commented that if I will fall or be inlove then he is finished..hehe..for I knew myself how to be inlove thats why I am afraid of loving and get hurt again because of betrayals..

As we see each other after a courting text..I didnt doubt and I am seeing in his eyes....I just cant figure it out..I love him! I knew I love him..and if everything seems to go wrong no worries we are on a long distance anayway and no strings attached..this was what I was thinking..but as time goes on everyday..I am longing to see him and be with him to feel I am his girlfriend..and if ever I think that we would end up our relationship it is really very painful and I could take it..I knew I love him from the moment we started our relationship. No doubt no question.

It has been months and he ask question why I answer yes to him right away I didnt know what to answer..ASking me if I have fall inlove or developed? I think both..I fall inlove with him right away and as time goes by my love for hime develops much stronger and deeper.

Relationship Unhidden

We travelled together going to bacolod. This will be the first time he would be going at our house and see my family.. He was nervous I could say that for it was a rush plan..I know he do things for me to show that his love was real..with courage he did go and I introduce him that he is already a man and not like a highschool student before..I am fulfilled that my family knew about our relationship. It was my first time to introduce to my family that I have a boyfriend. We were shy but I wanted to feel that his presence wasn't to be shy of. I was sad coz I think it was the last time we could see each other.

I was wrong..we celebrated our monthsary in bacolod for the first time after my medical check up on which he stood still and be there for me..To me it was I feel more secured and very happy..We also dated for the last time before he goes back and go travel in a vast ocean..

Most of our batch know that we are into relationship. When he got home as if he tells to any batchmates about the news. He get to spend time with his family and friends.It was amazing that he is so proud of me and not keeping our relationship hidden. This I finally could say that our relationship is for real and true love exist. I am so proud of him too..I know many people out there are jealous of the news that we the 2 of us are inlove..and it gives me a chill whenever our batchmates would ask for the wedding. I guess everyone is asking for those who knew..Well I am happy and I really miss him!