Happy Birthday Moy

Today is his birthday. Happy Birthday Moy!

Even though we are not together I could feel his love and care. I have also made a fan art for him with our photos together, sort of a gift. I ope he opened his facebook today and friendster for my comment.

Officially missing and joyfully loving you!

Calls

We talk each other by phone about anything else. Especially talking about our personal issues for we are away with each other. Importantly we talked about our relationship, how it's going to be and to the future.

We never run out of topics. He was cool and funny. He makes me laugh all night and how much I misses him and longing to be with him for fun talks like we use to each other when we are still just friends.

As he said if there are no sleepy thing we would not end up the our calls..hehe..love the way he talks and seriously he is kind of man a woman hopes for.

Dream of Him

It was the first time I have dream of him. Not remembered the exact details but I sweet and romantic...hahaha..

I guess I'm so in love with him.

Discoveries

I have discovered a lot on this night up to early in the morning.

My guy bestfriend which we are fond of chatting and also we have called each other a lot of names, I know him better on chat which ideally we can't talk much on person. This was his birthday celebration and so happy we could talk long enough personally... Hahaha

I had also been on talking to the guy who I miss a lot since there was a gap long ago due to his wondrous feelings about me. I just realize how much I miss our laughter's together. He is one of my first closest friend in my workplace.

Also it was amazingly weird about knowing new relationships with the group. I have stated there were people inlove and brokenhearted. There were interviews and teases about me and I could say that Thank God I finally found him for such many reasons I wanted it to be a lifetime.

Capricorn Men

Capricorn December 23 – January 20

A man in this Zodiac will has a pair of round big beautiful eyes, a nice structure jaw line. He is a good listener and can understand everything easily and clearly. He can guess what you will say before you even say it. He often shakes his head or touches his hair.

He is a big built, but he will tend to have a small ear. He tends to have a darker shade of hair and eyes’ color. He will likely have a short and strong neck, broad shoulder, muscular, strong hands and grips. He has a shorter fingers compare to the man of the same size and same height in the other zodiac. His hands can work well at the same time can protect and care for his woman.

His height will be proportional to his weight. He will walk firmly and always take a big long step. As he walks he will look around in caution with no disturbance from his problems at present or in the past. He likes to watch things built with fascinate and wonder about how it is done, so you could see him watching a construction site and not get bored. He is a good dancer.

He is a careful person in instinct, so even at dance floor; he will already have to know what in front or behind him before he will take any steps. Green is his favorite color. You will mostly see him wear green, navy, blue, or brown. In all 12 Zodiacs, he is the one who can get the most satisfaction from possession of beautiful thing, and cherish it as if it is very valuable to him even it is just a crystal ball made in France.

It is his luck that he hardly has to chase after woman. They always come themselves without his invitation. He likes to treat his guest in his house than visiting his guest at their house. He does not like to be a center of attention, so if you need his help, you have to look up for him. He lives his life in stability and simplicity.

Every decisions made are already “Sure” and carefully thought out. He will not do what he has been asked to do if he is not interested in doing it. He acts casually but in reality, he always doing things seriously. He loves peaceful and quiet environment so in his free time, he will stay at home instead of going out and look for adventure.

He loves nature and dreams of a nice and quiet house with lots of trees, or he may dream of a house in a beautiful countryside. He will let you have freedoms and watching you in a distance. If you are over doing something, he will let you know by his icy cold look. He is the perfect lover in the entire Zodiac for nothing he will not do for his love one.

He won’t allow people to laugh at him or think he is a joker, so he will spent for him luxury for what it is worth. He likes neat and well dressed woman, so do not be slop if you are dating this guy. If you do that he will loose his face. He is the romantic type who would dance with you under the moon light. Love will make him shines and you will see it in his face. He will not say it out loud; you have to know it yourself.

Is it possible to miss...

Is it possible to miss
something never expected
Is it possible to long for
something never experienced
Is it possible to wish for
something never believed

How long does the taste of chocolate
linger before it can be tasted a new?

I Never Thought...

i never thought i'd hurt like this...
i never thought i'd be betrayed, backstabbed, used, abandoned, soulwounded like i have...
i never thought i'd be who i am... someone bigger brighter better flashier smarter prettier
everything a girl should be

but...
i am i, and that is enough...
because...



i never thought i'd feel like this, be healed like this...
never thought i'd love like this--
never thought i'd love at all...
never at all, and never like this
but i do... and it is beautiful... and it is enough...

Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade

Fall For You

I'm still here by Vertical Horizon

I Remember You by Skid Row

Waiting for Him

I can't believe we have more plans together. He sees to it to stood up in his promises. Even though we are apart he surely wants me in his future life. I hope those plans would come true and I can't wait for it to happened. Everyday I discovered more about him and love him more dearly.

I love my moy.. I hope we could see each other again shortly in time. I miss him and wanted to be with him. Good luck in his journey, even though I am not by his side but my love would accompanied him where ever he takes and comes home safe and sound. I will be waiting for him as soon as he comes back.

Spirited Love

I never thought that this year would be as colorful and lovely.

After all these years, thinking of the wasteful and foolish heart of mine has gone through. More tears had been made and flowed down on my cheeks, things where different this year in time.

Reminiscing the past is a joyful thing but secretly been enthusiast. I have been left out, been silent and been bored on what life has to come on future when I am not in high spirits anymore. The things had happend to me was a very most reflection of myself now. I have been down, stumbled and fall numerously and it keeps on going drastically. Bitterness has overflown in m heart than love and forgiveness. Time then lead me to realize moving on is the most important thing to do, never look back on the pungency but on the blissful moments. Life is indeed learning from experiences and God lead me to the right path, a choice I never expect to happened.

I use to say, never tangle myself into love for I can't bare to hurt anyone, (but they are hurting me) and I am no luck on this stage of life. I had focus myself in my career for there were lots of oppurtunities coming and I could see my luck is in this field.

Then suddenly this Angel in disguised came in my life after years of no communication. Our story now begins this year of 2010. A very Happy New Year.

January 1, 2009 was a time when he had been seriously texting me that all he tells me was all true and no joke. Because I would play around with his texts when he calls me 'ghang' and I do call him back that way in a joke form. He would say he had the feeling on Christmas holiday when we had our reunion. After reunion I could recall he would contact me everyday. I was happy he never forgets and he makes me smile.

January 2, 2009 was a time of our first date and be with him alone for the first time. No group date. We had so much talks, from high school days to college up to works, telling about our lives when we are away and no communication with each other.

I remember too, when he contacted me back on our college years. Of course it was a long distance but he was consistent on texting and calling me. that time I was committed and he was too. We share happy and sad moments with our love ones. We advice each other and we in fact call each other "best". I didn't remember how our communication shutdown. We had break ups with our own partners and we move on with no updates on each other. I guess he was busy and heard he was on training.

The date was fun and memorable although he was seemingly shy. My approach was so friendly and I was comfortable with him. I would say from yesterday that let us see what would be my feelings if I see him. Well we eat and watch movie I was totally amazed we never stop talking and laughing. As if the joys was there and the sparks was all present from within. Yes I like him way back in high school for I like smart guys but it was nothing serious and never been on my mind to his girlfriend.

Then we got home and I know we had a mutual understanding already. We texted all night and reveal our feelings each other. I thought he would just say he liked me but he said he love me and sees me in his future life. He even said lets get married tomorrow. I never knew a guy that they may say things and plan things with me even though we are apart and no relationship first. He also reveals how much he plan on how he can captured my heart.

January 3 was a time I could not believe I love him more than ever. I never felt this way. He then calls me his wife and I really like it for he really sees me in his future. This was really a serious relationship and a matured one.

January 4 was I heard him in the phone saying I love you with my full name and appending his surname as my surname now. I don't know what to feel but had laugh myself out, I'm in high spirits! We talk and I felt missing him.

January 5 was a day of revelation that I have a boyfriend. I felt freedom to love him and shout to the world that I am his girlfriend and he is my boyfriend. I felt more missing him and more loving him.

January 6 was a time he said we have to tell our friend having feelings towards me that I have a boyfriend and he is the one. Good thing the talks came out successfully with the 2. He also reveals he begins liking me on high school years. He also had notice me being so simple from high school and up to know. So the one he was talking about that he had a crush on way back was me.

I ask him if he was ok on a long distance relationship and he said yes, because that would be the nature of his job. We understand each other lives that career must be on first. I know our limits and no rules is involve, the important is we believe each others love and compassion. I trust him as he trust me.

He was really my angel in disguise, a love that would last a life time. After all those years he waited and plan capturing my heart, true love gets on us and I will love him every moment of my life. I was really astonished and in love with this guy, he would tell me his search was over now that he finds me.